I’m trying to forget You
And You don’t make it easy
And why is that??
I talk/write to myself… cause You’ll never answer…(audibly)
(You let fear and fantasy rule… they are not my enslavers: so, I won’t submit (to You or them)!… Nor escape reality of responsibilities in this fleeting life.)
Ah, music of the heart must be played and I’m singing it
every SECOND… (and to deaf ears, eh?)
My heart is already circumcised and by agape
Oh, it appears…
as if…You “think” Your “empty” words mean anything to me?
Empty words do NOT entice me…………………..WHAT!SO?EVER!
I ask like Job: “Is there an end to empty words?”
How can meaningless life aka faithless & hopeless life offer me meaningful life?!… impossible/illogical!
Sadly, You cannot give me what You do not have!
My trajectory is set in precious stone
And there is more
Happiness in giving…
And I cannot
Look back (or hold back)
I’m praying for You:)
You find it
You hold onto it
the path of real love and real life…
I don’t hate You.